When words fail, music speaks. It sure does to me.
Sometimes in life things can become difficult, everything can get on top of you and you feel like there’s no way out. Whether that be a relationship break down, a family bereavement or a life-changing event, things can just feel … bleugh.
This happens far too often for me. I’ve been through so much in my life sometimes it feels like everything around me is crashing down and all I want to do is build a fort in my bedroom and forget about everything. But there’s always one thing I can always escape to …
The sound of music.
It might sound silly to some but music has been my escape ever since my teenage years. I was bullied terribly due to being a RAF brat and being shipped from place to place it was hard for me to settle down completely. When I lived in England I was bullied for being Scottish yet when I moved back to Scotland I was bullied for being English, I simply couldn’t win then I used to question who I really was.
During my high school years I spent most of my time trying to mix in with the wrong crowds, drinking at the weekends down on the beach thinking we were cool AF (however I do have some amazing memories from those days) and I admit, to impress certain people I did some stupid things, one of them involving being arrested for shoplifting. Looking back now, having a criminal record at the age of 16 is not cool in the slightest.
During the days of my parents divorce I spent many days hiding away in my bedroom listening to the tunes we used to download illegally on the likes of Limewire and instantly feeling this euphoria, belting out the lyrics and forgetting everything that was going on down the stairs, sometimes blocking out the arguments, knowing that my dad was never going to live with us again.
Getting a knock at the door on a Saturday morning with the news that 2 of your best mates had died in a car crash the night before, knowing that you will never see them again, knowing that Biology wont be the same without your lab partner. Whenever I think about them I turn on ‘Honey – I Believe’ and pretty much instantly burst into tears but it helps to remember all the good times we had together, sleepovers and girlie chats until stupid o’clock in the morning and our parents telling us to shut up several times. I Believe helps me to relive them glorious days.
One of my all time break up songs has to be ‘Conjure One – Tears From The Moon (Tiesto Remix)’, you can sometimes find me belting this out in the car whenever I’ve having a bad day. When me and my sons dad split up I used to play this on repeat because pretty much every lyric in that song described us, it used to be our song. I spent 3 years as a single mum which had to be the hardest time of my life, but I made it through the other side and my son now has a wonderful step dad and a pain in the butt sister!
From dance music to classic rock, I love all types of music. So many songs out there have helped me through so much, even if I can relate to the lyrics or not.
‘When words fail, music speaks’ is my favourite saying, I even got it tattooed on my upper back in 2010 when I was made homeless and had to live in my work (luckily for me I worked in a hotel).
Have you got a certain song which you can escape with?
Until next time,